Laparoscopy and dye test

Not sure how to start this blog post so i will start from the beginning obviously i went for my pre checkup and everything was fine to go ahead i was so nervous that day and when the nurse checked my blood pressure and pulse it was so high, she said i must be really nervous. I started laughing as anyone who knows me will tell you i worry about everything. Also when she checked my blood pressure i was left with lots of purple marks on my arm. she then weighed me and  took blood from me well after a couple of tries she managed to take my blood.

one of the scariest days of my life-
                                                          When we got to the hospital at 7:20am the nurse was so lovely and she picked up on how nervous i was after about 5 minutes of me being there lol. Anyway she gave me a gown and some lovely stockings and Thomas helped me to get changed she then came back to check my blood pressure and pulse and of course it was sky high. I then had to go and wee in a pot to check that i wasn't pregnant, I don't no why they bother as it always comes back negative. After a while Thomas had to leave as i wasn't allowed anyone to stay with me :( so i started crying as i didn't want him to go. After wiping my tears away i sat down and read my book and i have to say thank you to Lee Evans for helping me to get through those three hours before my op lol. I was so trying not to laugh as i was reading as didn't want the other ladies to think i was a weirdo.
    After talking to the doctor and anesthetist i felt a bit calmer as my biggest worry ws the anaesthetic.
my turn-
                walking down to theatre with the lovely nurse i felt weirdly calm and i didn't even have any medication to calm me down i mention this as the nurse asked me if the anesthetist had  gave me anything. I think she was a bit shocked that i hadn't had anything lol. to be honest i think i sent myself into shock as i remember being in the lift and this pregnant lady was talking to me don't ask me what she was saying as i think i just looked straight through her. she must of thought i was a right ignorant cow lol. I do recall she said something about me holding my pillow but thats it.
   Anyway i remember getting on the bed and them asking me about my job and stuff , Then i remember her slapping me near my wrist to get my veins up or something the needle went in and thats all i remember.
Recovery room-
                             I remember waking up trying to scratch my face but the oxygen mask was in my way, I looked at the nurse and think i must have drifted off again. When i woke up again i remember her talking about hobbies and i was telling her about my cross stitching. after being taking back to the ward i was now wide awake and the first thing i did was have a drink.
my results-
                   The friendly doctor came and sat next to me she was about to tell me my results but then asked if i wanted to see pictures, while looking at the pictures she told me that one fallopian tube was fine but the other is blocked she said she tried to put the dye through twice but it wouldn't go through, she also found patches of Endometriosis which she said is a mild case of it and also they removed a cyst from my ovary which she said is normal as they appear around ovulation. because i still felt out of it all i said to her was can i conceive with one tube and her reply was yes, she also said that i will have a follow up appointment in about eight weeks to discuss medication.
 When she left i had tears in my eyes because in my mind i was thinking thats it i am never going to get my beautiful baby even tho she said i could still conceive.
   After getting up and going to the toilet i remeber laughing when i seen my blue bum in the mirror i looked like a smurf and doing a wee well that was a bit of a shock but i will spare you the details.
  When i got back to my bed i asked if i could sit in the chair and the lovely nurse went and got me some toast. Also Thomas phoned and the nurse was like i will tell him to come now as he is so eager to see you lol.
 When i seen Thomas i broke down again and tried to explain what the doctor said and Thomas was so lovely and said it will be ok, I remeber saying to Thomas he could leave me if he wanted incase i can't give him a baby and he said some lovely things.
  After getting checked over i was allowed to go home :) I just want to say that the two nurses who looked after me they were so lovely and kind and also a couple of ladies on the ward were also really nice and wished me luck.
pain-
        I felt weird when i left the hospital but not in a lot of pain, but when the tablets wore off i was in agony and the gas pain was horrible as it travelled to my shoulder and neck, I felt scared about washing my wounds but once i was in the shower it wasn't so bad, I am still in pain now but it is bearable it feels like someone is squeezing my ovary at times and my stomach just feels really tender and its horrible when you try and cough, hopefully tonight i can lie on my side. I forgot to mention they cut me in my groin area and then inside my belly button.
black cloud-
                     Since leaving hospital i have felt very down and cried a lot, I think i just need to give myself time to heal my body as well as my mind. over the last couple of days i have realised how much Thomas loves me just by the way he looked after me, washing me, getting me tablets, not being mad when i woke him in the middle of the night scared and upset and only yesterday i was screaming and shouting at him cos i didn't want him to go to work and leave me cos i felt scared and sore. Also i am lucky to have my mum and sister to talk to as i think i have done there heads in with my constant worrying lol (my mum and Thomas's mum also told me i have to stay off google lol)  my future sister in law  has been a great help as she was in a similar situation to me. loads of people have helped me really with there positive stories.
 Also I have decided to write down some questions for when i go and see the consultant in 8 weeks, i have so much stuff going round in my head i am scared of forgetting it. I think once i have seen the consultant  and they tell me what will happen next i  will calm down and relax a little.
 
                   Thank you for reading this long post on our journey
                                   love Kirsty xx