Update after hospital appointment

My follow up appointment-

On tuesday I had my follow up appointment from the laparoscopy at the hospital. It wasn't Mr Newman who i was expecting but another consultant apparently there was a mix up but it didn't matter because he was nice and I can't remember his name oops.

Delayed Period-
 The first thing I wanted to talk about was the delay of my period he asked me if I had taking a test and I said yes he then asked me if I would like to take another one as there tests are more sensitive.  I said no and he asked me why and this is when I got upset. I just explained to him that there was no point in me doing it because I knew what the answer would be. Anyway after wiping my tears away I agreed to take the test, I made my way to the toilet and did my buisness in those annoying little pots which I either end up weeing on my hand or on the outside of the pot. sorry if that was to much information. I did wash the outside of the pot before I handed it over to the nurse :) oh yeah did I mention that the test was NEGATIVE. If only he had listened to me in the first place he could of saved himself a test and saved himself from my tears haha.

Laparoscopy results-
He spoke about the findings from the laparoscopy and I got to see the lovely pictures of my womb again. It was nice seeing them more clearly as last time I was high from the anesthetic. The first thing he spoke about was my fallopian tubes and that there could be a chance that my tube isn't blocked after all he explained that sometimes when the dye is passed through It can cause your tube to spasm and another thing he said it could be is a build up of mucus. He then spoke about the endometriosis and said that it shouldn't affect me getting pregnant.  (yay some good news).

X ray and dye test- (Hysterosalpingogram)-(read more here)
The not so good news is that I have to get my fallopian tubes checked again and this time I will be wide awake while they poke about in my private area lol. He said he didn't want to put me through another laparoscopy. So I have  been told to take painkillers before I have this done as it is painful :( .

Clomid, IUI and IVF-
The consultant spoke to us about the different treatments and what we would like to do next. we have got three months to think about it before I go back for my next appointment which i recieved a letter for today. Me and Thomas have been talking and I think we are going to start with Clomid (read more here). Then if that doesn't work we will then try IUI (read more here) Hopefully the clomid or the IUI will work because IVF (read more here) is something that I don't even want to think about.

Endometriosis uk- (read more here)
Since being diagnosed with endometriosis I have come across a page on facebook called Endometriosis uk which also has a facebook group which is full of lots of friendly ladies who are all suffering with this  disease.

* After tuesday I am feeling a bit more positive and that we are finally getting somewhere I have come to the conclusion that we are probably not going to be able to conceive without medical help. So I am going to take and try everything I can. I just hope that going through all this, the operation all the tests and medication will one day be worth it.

Thanks for reading this post on our journey
 love Kirsty xx

hoping for a miracle

Just thought I would write a quick post and let you know what has been going on with me this week.

Positive or Negative-

Well on wednesday I decided to take a pregnancy test because my last period was on the 25th of September and I am always regular the only time I have ever missed a period was in may 2012 due to a vitamin called pregnacare conception.  I had been putting off doing the test for a while because in my heart I knew it wouldn't be positive but then I thought I have to go and see mr newman at the hospital on tuesday and it would be stupid of me to say by the way my period is really late but I haven't took a test.
  So I bought the pregnancy test on my lunch break and took it on wednesday night I decided not to tell Thomas I was doing the test because I didn't want to get his hopes up. So I took the test and of course it was negative. I always tell myself in my head that it is going to be negative because I think that is my way of dealing with the dissapointment and hurt. I always tell myself I wont cry over it but then of course I do. Then I beat myself up for even bothering to take the test in the first place. Now I am feeling really confused because in a way its like my body is playing tricks on me and fooling me into thinking that just maybe I could be pregnant.

Anyway  maybe mr newman can give me some answers on what is going on with me and I will continue to do whatever it takes to get our little miracle baby.

I just found this quote and it made me smile for a second :)

 Thank you for reading this post on our journey
  love Kirsty xx

Nine days and counting

I have decided that because I have neglected my blog for quite a while that I would try and update it on a more regular basis, I was thinking maybe once a week just to share my thoughts and feelings with you.


My battle scars-

After having the Laparoscopy done in august I thought I would show you a photograph of how my wound is healing in my groin area as I thought it was pointless showing you the one inside my belly button as you probably wouldn't be able to see it anyway.




September 2012

November 2012

I call this my battle scar because everytime I look at it, it reminds me of what I am fighting for.

Nine days and counting-
This is when I have my follow up appointment at the hospital to see Mr Newman since having the Laparoscopy. I am feeling happy that the date is getting closer but I am also feeling slightly anxious. I think over the next couple of days I am going to have a good think and sit down with Thomas (my partner) and write down everything that we want to ask Mr Newman.

Anyway I am going to leave this post short and sweet and anybody out there who is going through this. I just wanted to say that I feel your pain and if you would like to get in touch with me to have a chat about things just leave me a comment.

Thank you for reading this post on our journey
love from Kirsty xx