I am sat here wondering if 2013 will be any different for us its hard to remain positive when you have so much doubt about everything and have been trying to conceive for two years and two months. I find it hard to smile about things these days, it feels like I am living under a dark cloud. All the things i dream of seem so far out of my reach I almost feel like I don't deserve to be happy because the one thing that i want and that would make us so happy is not happening for us, it hurts so much. I often feel angry at myself and my broken body, i think that i am not strong enough to continue trying and often feel like i am kidding myself about any of the treatments actually helping me to get pregnant. I just hope that everything that I am going through will be worth it in the end and me and Thomas will have our beautiful little baby. Sorry for being so negative in this post I do understand that there are people in this world who are far worse off than us but its hard to see the good in anything when you want a baby so badly.
for all the people who are in a similar position to us i wish you all the luck and hopefully 2013 will be our year.
Thanks for reading this post on our journey love Kirsty xx
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